dreams

2007-07-03T06:46:00.000+08:00

i played the WCG @ yewtee cc last weekend under my team Micro Xtreme. met a popular and establised clan dN in the quarterfinals but lost to them. my team was controlling them and we racked up kills that were at least double of theirs the entire game. but we did not take the initiative to push, thus letting them form up their BKBs and turn the tide. WHAT A DISAPPOINTMENT! otherwise we could have proceeded and probably finish as champions. hais. a chance to get seeded in WCG FINALS plus $1000 leh~! ROAR!
in a dilemma now, dunno if i should go compete in the Ulu Pandan competition this sat, because i have agreed derrick to help out in track poly50 trial run. both are equally important to me lah, but i'm much more enthusiastic bout dota as i feel we stand a good chance.

just finished mahjong with my khakis. heh. finally stopped my losing streak over the last few months. im so gonna get a ZI MO KAH LONG PING HU this fri. hehe.

i've not stopped dreaming of you. wonder when would you cease to appear in my mind. is it because of the promise i made to you, or is it because i miss you.

serena, how can i ever stop loving you.

2007-06-04T00:29:00.000+08:00

current record: -$80
losing streak: 11

i 4got what i wanted to blog

2007-05-21T16:03:00.000+08:00

:)))
woohoo~!!

2007-05-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

sheesshhh damnit stressed now. @#$%! ohmigosh lah....

2007-05-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

saw her friendster today. only got to see the main pic as she isnt on my friends list. knowing that she is in xingfu land, im happy for her. wanna re-add her. but no balls.

kanjiong spiders

2007-05-14T01:25:00.000+08:00

current record: -$65
current losing streak: 9th
=/

fcuked up stressed mood. i wan you so badly.. by the 21st may i hope to get a positive answer.. can only pray nth would go wrong. most of u guys wouldnt be able to guess what i'm talking about la..

manutd out

2007-05-03T04:47:00.000+08:00

oh gosh manutd lost on ac milan's homeground. goes to show mk's tip was very accurate, which was to bet on the home team in champions league. as usual, ronaldo sucked. why is there so much hype about him. they claim he is fast, yeah i saw 4 milan players outrun him. and the matches were supposedly kaka vs ronaldo, yeah funny hor, when kaka is a class above him. maybe ronaldo is a singaporean, buay sai por. compliment him and he is back to square 1.

lost a total of 50bucks le. 7th time....fail. its a sign that i have to set free more birds for more luck.

thats bout it gotto wake up at 8am zzz...

pain

2007-04-21T07:33:00.000+08:00

that which does not kill u, only serves to make u stronger.

the emotional torture was intolerable. there she was, embracing another guy, seemingly oblivious to my presence. there i was, struggling to come to terms with what was being presented right in front of me. anguish, disappointment, disapproval, and helplessness. i was literally praying for the night to pass right by. but instead, time came to a complete standstill. during this agonising period, countless thoughts raced across my mind. where has the girl with sensible thinking, great character and high moral values gone to? could i have just pulled you away. would this be prevented if you were more sober. what could i do, when you offered yourself to someone you barely knew. this was when i realised, not everything can be under our control. i'm just a friend to you. as hard as i try to guide you, i should just let go.

how i wish i wasn't there to witness your wild behaviour.
how i wish you would come to your senses.
how i wish i have not fallen for you.

one word aptly describes what i felt.
PAIN.
as it had failed to kill me,
it made me stronger.

-

i have learnt to think more maturely, yet you have stepped into a phase of immaturity.
the other time you swore never to do such stuffs again, were those empty promises you made?

2007-04-19T01:38:00.000+08:00

chilled out with zhiwei and his fren. at this place called Brewerks. its along clarke quay. hmms quite a pleasant atmosphere. worth patronising again. would have stayed with them if not for school tmr.. talked bout our problems. yeah LDR relationships just doesnt work. better to move on. i gotto stop drinking on a daily basis be it 1 can per day.

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u dont know, how much i miss u so

daze

2007-04-15T08:00:00.000+08:00

just ended 2rounds of mahjong session with yufan and his gf. yesh its 3 legged mahjong. couldnt manage to get the other khakis and easterners lah. all busy working or studying. cant think properly now due to lack of sleep. hmms won 10bucks but i would rather not win if it results in being stronger in another aspect, u know what i mean. superstitious stuff lah.
HAIS....................

self memo: if you do not have the courage to do something bout it, why think?

such pointless dwelling...
maybe after i wake up, it will be a better day.
it will be..

-

leaving it all to fate. it will be if its meant to be..

champions league action ROAR

2007-04-12T05:08:00.000+08:00

oh yes... manutd thrashed the wusses 7 - 1!!. ronaldo ought to think of playing as a team though.. solo solo di di solo. the times he did not, manutd scored. yes he can run, dribble, shoot, but not everyday is sunday. he goes for personal glory all too often.

ahh what an exciting match to watch live. here are the goals:

manutd meets ac milan next.
chelsea meets liverpool. hopefully liverpool beats the lights out of tycosea(always last minute score -.- zzz)

go manutd!

hmms met mich and shasha today. mich wanna get permanent tattoo together with shasha. that silly girl. tattoo got option for temporary yet u wanna get permanent. have u ever thought what if next time u dont like the design, or wanna get rid of it or other stuffs? erasing the tattoos are not only much more painful than getting one, you will be left with SCARS too. as much as u have a kind heart, people would start to look at u in a different light(ahlian or being sui bian), these include ur parents, ur friends, ur prospective employers who may not employ u cos of them. dunno if ya know bout this blog, hopefully someone will get this msg across to u. if u wan one for style or fun, a temporary one also does the job, and leaves u with no regret. u get my point yea?

sigh the thought of repeating a semester just for 1 module just drives me crazy. I WANNA GO ARMY WITH MY FRIENDS LAH.... gonna be making my timetable later. if can fit into mon,tues or better still 1day, it'll be damn sui. at least i wld be free to work.

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*although its only been awhile, i wanna see u again =)

sick sick

2007-04-08T04:07:00.000+08:00

down with flu and sore throat since thurs. hurts like hell. mos was soo crowded due to free entry so the cathigh guys including me left at 1am ++. mich was there too but i did not spot her, maybe cos too short la lol. i miss tat silly girl =)

on friday some siao kia classmates came all the way from northern side of singapore and tampinese to my house for mahjong. 1 of them took the game so seriously although we only played 20cents per tai. showed black face and scold vulgarities when losing, atmosphere was only less tense after he started to win -.- sore loser lahs. my flu worsened as the night went but bo bians they come from so far so just continue playing lor. hais all chen ren zi wei haha in the end i lost 15bucks =/ no luck sia

manutd lost to portsmouth 2-1 arghhhhh. xanthe swore not to come online for a week if manutd loses. hope she didnt meant it. if not im short of one lamer to lame with. hahaha.

bedtime.

11 christiano ronaldos in ROMA

2007-04-05T04:46:00.000+08:00

fulltime: manutd 1 - 2 roma

roma's masterplan: when manutd's players tackle u, fall to the ground. push u, fall. touch u, fall. slightest contact, just fall. if you see manutd's players fall, regardless the reason, u also fall with them.

-.-

roma outplayed manutd. in terms of individual flair, and yes, wuss tactics. go gym more to train your legs if they are that fragile.

may manutd thrash the wusses in the 2nd leg.

once upon a time..

2007-04-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

i'm thinking of you. wondering how are you doing. has your guy been treating you well? are you happy? it has been 3yrs ever since you left. as absurd as it is, for the past 3yrs, the times i've thought of you numbered more than the days itself. on numerous occasions, tears just fill my eyes.

for, its through u, i've experienced what true love is.. its from u, that i've found the qualities of a soulmate. its with you, that nothing else matters. no one can replace you in my heart. i miss you. love you.

once, embracing each other with a hug, i whispered, "i promise i will love you forever." this is a promise i've kept till this day, and i'll keep it forever.