i played the WCG @ yewtee cc last weekend under my team Micro Xtreme. met a popular and establised clan dN in the quarterfinals but lost to them. my team was controlling them and we racked up kills that were at least double of theirs the entire game. but we did not take the initiative to push, thus letting them form up their BKBs and turn the tide. WHAT A DISAPPOINTMENT! otherwise we could have proceeded and probably finish as champions. hais. a chance to get seeded in WCG FINALS plus $1000 leh~! ROAR!
in a dilemma now, dunno if i should go compete in the Ulu Pandan competition this sat, because i have agreed derrick to help out in track poly50 trial run. both are equally important to me lah, but i'm much more enthusiastic bout dota as i feel we stand a good chance.

just finished mahjong with my khakis. heh. finally stopped my losing streak over the last few months. im so gonna get a ZI MO KAH LONG PING HU this fri. hehe.

i've not stopped dreaming of you. wonder when would you cease to appear in my mind. is it because of the promise i made to you, or is it because i miss you.

serena, how can i ever stop loving you.

current record: -$80
losing streak: 11

i 4got what i wanted to blog

:)))
woohoo~!!

sheesshhh damnit stressed now. @#$%! ohmigosh lah....

saw her friendster today. only got to see the main pic as she isnt on my friends list. knowing that she is in xingfu land, im happy for her. wanna re-add her. but no balls.

kanjiong spiders

current record: -$65
current losing streak: 9th
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fcuked up stressed mood. i wan you so badly.. by the 21st may i hope to get a positive answer.. can only pray nth would go wrong. most of u guys wouldnt be able to guess what i'm talking about la..

manutd out

oh gosh manutd lost on ac milan's homeground. goes to show mk's tip was very accurate, which was to bet on the home team in champions league. as usual, ronaldo sucked. why is there so much hype about him. they claim he is fast, yeah i saw 4 milan players outrun him. and the matches were supposedly kaka vs ronaldo, yeah funny hor, when kaka is a class above him. maybe ronaldo is a singaporean, buay sai por. compliment him and he is back to square 1.

lost a total of 50bucks le. 7th time....fail. its a sign that i have to set free more birds for more luck.

thats bout it gotto wake up at 8am zzz...

pain

that which does not kill u, only serves to make u stronger.

the emotional torture was intolerable. there she was, embracing another guy, seemingly oblivious to my presence. there i was, struggling to come to terms with what was being presented right in front of me. anguish, disappointment, disapproval, and helplessness. i was literally praying for the night to pass right by. but instead, time came to a complete standstill. during this agonising period, countless thoughts raced across my mind. where has the girl with sensible thinking, great character and high moral values gone to? could i have just pulled you away. would this be prevented if you were more sober. what could i do, when you offered yourself to someone you barely knew. this was when i realised, not everything can be under our control. i'm just a friend to you. as hard as i try to guide you, i should just let go.

how i wish i wasn't there to witness your wild behaviour.
how i wish you would come to your senses.
how i wish i have not fallen for you.

one word aptly describes what i felt.
PAIN.
as it had failed to kill me,
it made me stronger.

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i have learnt to think more maturely, yet you have stepped into a phase of immaturity.
the other time you swore never to do such stuffs again, were those empty promises you made?

chilled out with zhiwei and his fren. at this place called Brewerks. its along clarke quay. hmms quite a pleasant atmosphere. worth patronising again. would have stayed with them if not for school tmr.. talked bout our problems. yeah LDR relationships just doesnt work. better to move on. i gotto stop drinking on a daily basis be it 1 can per day.

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u dont know, how much i miss u so

daze

just ended 2rounds of mahjong session with yufan and his gf. yesh its 3 legged mahjong. couldnt manage to get the other khakis and easterners lah. all busy working or studying. cant think properly now due to lack of sleep. hmms won 10bucks but i would rather not win if it results in being stronger in another aspect, u know what i mean. superstitious stuff lah.
HAIS....................

self memo: if you do not have the courage to do something bout it, why think?

such pointless dwelling...
maybe after i wake up, it will be a better day.
it will be..

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leaving it all to fate. it will be if its meant to be..